My old mind says "no, stay with these problems, or they may overwhelm you.... you own them and you must..... you were right.... " and so on. But they are phantoms. When I think I am dealing with them well, most of the time, I am looking away and not at them. I can look at them with ease, especially if I let go and allow myself to concentrate, even for a moment, on breathing or the stone, or on nothing at all.
Then I have a less agitated place to see them from. After all, it is always the place in me that is agitating, not what is outside. I place blame on everything outside of me. Letting go of this sense of me is a must; and although letting go and concentration, release and bliss feel like an end run around my problems at times, this meditation is teaching me more about the truth of things.
It teaches me ease. Ease is the balm for my problems that attention can directly apply.
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