Sleepy and full of thoughts tonight, moods really, vague and disconnected recollections of other places and lives... most of them mine.. What to do with them? I am comfortable knowing that I am made of my past and connected to many things.
Moods pull directly on tiredness itself, or maybe my struggle with tiredness... I am sleepy and I'm not sure I like it because I am trying to stay awake right now. So the mood becomes one of struggling with a blocked energy.
So much of mood is the energy of the body... When I am energetic without an outlet I am restless. When I am tired without a place to sleep, either physically or metaphorically, I can get overtired, tired as an irritation. The body energy impacting on mood... and yet, I can be peaceful in relation to any state.. any body state can be accepted and softened. Accepting and energetic body states are not tight or stressful. Things are flowing.
Flow feels like the right word to describe the best relationship I can have with body states. And flow seems to be emanating outward like a ripple from and with all states rather than being a mutual influence.
It feels like a different orientation; one that is touching mind and body without any restless struggle, any need to change any state.
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