Day One Hundred Ninety-seven

How does attention wrap around thought if attention, in it simplest form, is free? Certainly it can't be the attention, can't be mindfulness that wraps around. It must be something that passes for mindfulness or attention.

Often we start out quite mindful of our task, quite open to the activity we are engaging in. But by degrees we lose perspective, get carried away, find ourselves lashing out or isolating, nervous or lethargic toward it.

I'm sure it is the ego's hijacking of the attention, all of this activity is me and mine, and therefore any changes that bring attraction or aversion create a supposed attention toward things. The problem seems to be that we mistake thought, mistake targets of attention for attention, and we miss the impulses born of the ego entirely.