Day Two hundred and eight

I can't find any part of my body tonight that is not a little stressed. I find pressure behind my eyes and in my sinuses, the weight of my head, tightness in my chest and breathing, aches in my muscles.... none of it strong like I have a cold, more like something that I don't normally notice, that is very biological, always there, tensions that move me toward and away from things, that resist like the mind real relaxation, complete letting go.... in fact the various tensions have been there all week, and it is more the subtle reactions to them than even the aches and pains which are the problem... Being always in a state of readiness, always in a state of preparing to go and do or be careful in the body.... I notice that what I do not let go of is simply whatever is going on, and I am able to hold on in the most subtle, unthinking ways.