
Craving seems to be simply wanting to be elsewhere. When I am going to meditate, I notice many cravings. Most of them are in the realm of thought, but these thoughts are often influenced by feelings and the body.
I am running through many scenarios in my life about gaining this or losing that. There are more diffuse wants that drift into a fog. I want to argue with situations in my life. I lose sight of the fact that I can look upon these hindrances for what they are and not push them away too forcefully. By noting what is going on I can refocus. I can see the craving, at least generally.
I am holding this stone. I am this body. I am posessed of many fears and arguments. I am this mind. This is a helpful step for me, although none of it is true. I need to go through it because the truth, that even my concentration, body and thoughts are not 'mine' is a place I must take steps to. For me, to let go I must know what I am letting go of.
Craving falls under the categories of hindrances; of doubt, restlessness, tiredness, desire and aversion, but doesn't seem to be any of these things. In other words, I can have doubt and not crave for it to be different, focus on its arising and watch its passing. I can see tiredness and not crave for it to end or crave to sink into it and so on. As for desire, that is much closer to craving, but I can watch that, too and turn back gently to the object of focus or let it pass.
This thirst for what is different feels so very intimately tied to all things.
I am running through many scenarios in my life about gaining this or losing that. There are more diffuse wants that drift into a fog. I want to argue with situations in my life. I lose sight of the fact that I can look upon these hindrances for what they are and not push them away too forcefully. By noting what is going on I can refocus. I can see the craving, at least generally.
I am holding this stone. I am this body. I am posessed of many fears and arguments. I am this mind. This is a helpful step for me, although none of it is true. I need to go through it because the truth, that even my concentration, body and thoughts are not 'mine' is a place I must take steps to. For me, to let go I must know what I am letting go of.
Craving falls under the categories of hindrances; of doubt, restlessness, tiredness, desire and aversion, but doesn't seem to be any of these things. In other words, I can have doubt and not crave for it to be different, focus on its arising and watch its passing. I can see tiredness and not crave for it to end or crave to sink into it and so on. As for desire, that is much closer to craving, but I can watch that, too and turn back gently to the object of focus or let it pass.
This thirst for what is different feels so very intimately tied to all things.
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