After all this time I have just begun to stay with the feeling of the stone. In breathing meditation I have sense of allowing it to 'just happen by itself', but touching is less rhythmic, less of an automatic process that is happening all the time. Yet, I do place my attention on a specific place for breathing and likewise with touching. In this case I usually feel my thumb on one spot. Staying with the feeling is easier when I can ask myself it the feeling is pleasant, unpleasant or neutral.
Often the feeling is diffuse into the thumb and hand and so I concentrate on one spot where the thumb just touches the stone. I lead myself gently back to it many times. Often, I must work with the blocks to meditation and then they dissipate. Neutrality is a hallmark of working with this stone, and then less often, unpleasantness. It rarely feels pleasant. Pehaps I can begin to define my meditations more specifically by these qualities. Also, I feel the need to ask 'what is touching', more often.
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