It is a good day to wish others well in addition to meditating on a stone. Wishing others well includes visualizing them and using some concentration on that image, to call them to mind. In doing so, other thoughts about them and myself and things that happened or did not happen and so on, come to mind along with their image. I try to notice that and then bring my concentration back to them. Doubt, never far away, rears up and says that I may not have any effect, or there is too much water under the bridge and therefore who am I to offer kindness, or this or that body state comes up, just as in meditation on something else.
For me, coming back to concentration on a person with specific words, letting go of other dialogue, is not easy, but I do notice a presence of mind much like concentration on breathing or the stone, that opens up my senses, feels lighter, more at ease. The difference for me in concentrating on someone else is the struggle with a sense of inner purity (the how can I be good enough thoughts). When I let that go, I feel loved as well. It's from that space, feeling loved, that I become more sure that what I am doing is helpful to myself and others. And as much as I often wish that someone else could make me feel loved, only I can open the door to my own watchtower.
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