Day Forty-two

I sprained my ankle slightly so I can feel much of my energy going toward that spot. The pain pulls in my attention, probably so that I can do something about it. It's an old injury and this one isn't bad but I can feel it. When I really look, it's mostly a throbbing, spreading kind of stiffness and not so bad. There's some fear of getting old, or this not going away, and what to do about tomorrow and all that. It's harder to concentrate on the stone, or is it? Really, in terms of quantity of problems, the ankle is less of an issue than some other things. Sure, it pulls me in (or should I say I reach out and pick it up), but with concentration, I can give it its due. The application of meditation to problems, it seems to me, is really just the serenity prayer, to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.

But that's not meditation, that's just one way to experience a particular release. It's meditative in the sense that acceptance and wisdom can come from a still place, a non-entangled place. But meditation is about looking at the process of feeling and craving. The 'looking' is unique because it seems to be more 'felt' than 'looked at', although experiencing anything without resistance leads to the availabity of that looking.

Feeling the process of entanglement, I know I have been working with a lot of that. After that? Working with disentanglement. After that, working with unentanglement, and probably all the entanglements that come with it.