Day Fifty-eight

I can feel my body system working very fast. Either this makes it difficult to meditate or not seeing it makes it difficult. It is interesting to me that in many ways, meditation is defined by the removal of that which makes it difficult, that which hinders it. In that sense, meditation is a natural state.

My body is anticipating many things. Even after a period of quiet, it is rapidly salivating, digesting, pumping blood at a considerable rate. I have been especially on the go and I am not sure why. Perhaps I also have a tension like a rush to quiet. This is good to know. I so often contrast meditation with the processes that pull me along. But this is the same body and the same mind either at rest or busy with itself. Then there is recognition of no focus. I know I am not looking, I define looking as loosening around that which I had been tight, the lack of focus and turning toward the object of meditation with intention, consciousness, perception and toward the form. A moment of quiet before turning toward concentration, and a more positive feedback loop begins.

It seems that this troublesome form, this stone, this odd object, becomes neutral, pleasant and unpleasant..... but it has none of those qualities; they are only the result of contact. Ultimately, it is but a little round doorway.