Noticing a strong negative feeling from earlier today; frustration and anger, defensiveness. Noticing how I wrap around these feelings, protect them. I let myself stay with them, get closer, open up to them. I am surprised to discover that kind attention and anger are not opposites.
Often, I consider anger a state I must not lose, must not reveal. It is a surface feeling for fear and potential loss of me; I usually get angry when I feel threatened. I bring attention to it, notice that the feeling is compounded by having mentally run into a roadblock about practical ways to deal with the situation.
I let that be and focus on the body to begin with. My whole body is tight. I grow close, notice that deep feelings like this really define me, an outline carved by a swift sword. They have some relief right where they are, the only place they can have relief, a release of me, of tightness.
I learn from my strong feelings, they are wrapped around my heart.
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