I am tired today, after working in the garden and bike riding. I worry less about meditating while tired. Usually it is wave of thoughts about falling away from concentration into dream, and being physically tired.
If I do not struggle, I become less sleepy after a time. However, I sense that consciousness is more accessible and full of promise than unconsciousness, and so I resist. I don't want to lose my awake state. This adds the restlessness of struggling against a very natural state, and trying to hold on to another state. Two hindrances in one.
All in all I am not awake in either state. I let go of my worry, knowing that my state of awake is being cultivated by gently returning myself to concentration.
The stone is cool to the touch, hard and heavy, but not in any way a burden.
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