Day Two Hundred and Twenty Four

When the stone is not a perfect place to concentrate, it is a very good place to study. It is like an entire university, full of every hindrance known. I can see more clearly from this place of concentration my hindrances and my relationship to them. I get so much out of attachment, aversion, tiredness and restlessness. Even doubt provides me with a clear way out of practice. I doubt what is happening, I doubt my capabilities, and believing in that pushes me right into old distractions of the mind.... "if this isn't working, then it must not be true", I say to myself.

Yet the diseases deepen because I know that my hindrances, upon inspection, give me nothing that lasts, nothing that satisfies.