I feel confident from achievement and have clarity of mind with little of doubt's obscuring fog. Which is interesting given that I have made this situation up from activity relative only to me. I notice the desire to stay in this state and how hard it is to let go. Staying in a happy state when it is strong hardly seems necessary but I notice that I do it subtly by quickly jumping away from the fear of the state fading and up and onto a trampoline of imagined goodness, all of which is one off from any state I am really in, excepting that it moves me through another unreal state. In that sense, my states of attachment necessarily are agents of change, since they are self made and I am changing all the time.
And so this dependent happiness is insubstantial, but herefore doubt also is insubstantial, something piled on top of reality.
And reality, it feels like the observation of me from the stone, rather than observation by me of the stone.
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