I find a tendency in myself to believe I cannot examine anything without criticizing it. By that I mean that I lean my vision of myself against it, either outwardly or more passively. Phrases such as "I don't do it that way" or "This doesn't feel like anything I like" or "This is worth examining because it is something I like"... tend to typify an internal process of measuring myself against everything. Even my stone is either 'mine' or 'working well' or 'irritating' or 'feeling like this or that'.... I can feel my self created security slipping away when I encounter something just as it is.
What does life feel like in actuality? It is so much a measure of my own hindrances that seem to be the best starting point. I see now a little bit... What I have held on to fades a little bit.
How to be with anything without judgement?
I do not believe in awareness without ownership, but all things are here because they do not judge, they are not judged.
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