Day One Hundred Eighty Nine

I touch the stone and feel grounded in my body. I have had a headache and soreness for a couple of days; felt feverish. I feel foolish about trying to get away from my body; just as I want to stay with it longer when it is pleasurable.

Although I counsel people who are in pain to accept it and not struggle so much; I am not good at letting go myself. I do notice how I tighten up and add to the problem. I let go a little by noticing that I am afraid for my body, afraid it will not get better. I let go more by meditating; the same freedom from all states of mind comes from concentration. It seems to not be a state of mind at all, and therefore what is added to the body just vanishes. I feel open. New thoughts following meditation are subject to a much wider range of recognition, choice, and letting go.