Noticing that sometimes moving toward sloth substitutes for peace of mind, but only when moving from an overexcited or restless state, because it is more comfortable. At other times, restlessness feels peaceful for a moment in its transition away from sloth. Neither state is a very deep insight, I suppose there is a desire to capture and bottle the oh so brief moments of a calm (or calmer relative to something else) body/mind state.
Noticing the tendency to have clarity of mind dependent on outside circumstances. 'If only I had not left my stone somewhere tonight and not have to use a foreign one', 'If only the stone were more one-pointed or perhaps cooler to the touch'..... 'if only I did not have a head full of the day'.
What does it take to be with whatever is here long enough for it to pass, to stay still enough right here in the middle of it rather than getting carried along by it all? Once again, there is nothing out there that is carrying me away, nothing at all.
No comments:
Post a Comment