The feel of the stone: Does it have firm resistance? Or is it the soft thumb with a bone inside that feels? I never feel the stone. Even a property like 'smooth' is the feeling of my hand upon it, a meeting of skin and stone. Even these two apparent elements are made of very many parts.
Apart from that, I feel much neutrality when touching. It feels smooth and firm and somewhat cool, then warming. I wrestle with a neutrality, think I don't like it. But I see there a hindrance, a doubt that there can be benefit in awareness of neutrality, a doubt that my relationship with touching could lead anywhere. I note that, and stop trying to find anything. Doubt fades away without its imagined anchor and goal.
I camped under the stars with my two boys last night. I thought about the earth being a great big stone. Grass and trees look as vivid this morning as did the constellations in the blackness. A bee and its trailing sound cuts a very crisp line across the campsite.
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