Day One Hundred and Forty Eight

As I sit, I think many thoughts. I let them by and feel the stone. I notice myself reaching out for many other sensory things, shapes behind my eyelids, sounds, and then looking for 'files' from the past to fit them into. I let those be. I notice that the feeling and I have a neutral relationship a lot of the time. The neutrality feels especially instructive; how can I have a neutral relationship with anything in sense or mind? How is it perceived if it is neutral. I think that often, neutrality is closer to contact, preceeding feeling, just on the edge of coming into feeling and then grasping. It may sometimes be the feeling of neutrality 'going away' also, where the contact is not seen as particularly harmful or helpful and the sense of self does not grow from it, and so I am 'moving on' to other sense contact. Perhaps neutral contact is occuring all over my senses, all the time, in addition to pleasant and unpleasant. Although this leads me to think that I can let go of certain contacts and cultivate others, that is not concentration or mindfulness, or anything that leads to release.