I hold the stone in my left hand, mostly on two fingers, with my thumb on top. I intend to concentrate on the feeling of my hand touching the stone. I seem to want my breath to be the anchor. How to gently let go of breath? I recognize the breath, note that I am breathing also, and let it be more in the background; I say 'touching, touching' with my thumb on top of the stone. Then another dilemma of thought... is touching the thumb or my fingers below? Is there too much space to touch? Should there be only one small point such as the center of my thumb? Likewise, the stone is not one point. I could never make one point small enough to be one independent point on either the stone or my thumb. The desire to control space. Where is touching? Why does my hand ache? I hear crickets and geese. There is a desire to get up, to be done. There are such struggles with time.
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